I find it hard to think of someone that I have a long history of just fucking as a romantic love interest. To tell you the truth, with most people I fuck, I do, to some degree, at the beginning, have small hopes that MAYBE this one would be different, and it won't just be sex. After the second time fucking, I let it slip away, and become content with the fact we're just fuck buddies, not even friend, not going to become a relationship. I suppose I didn't get enough male attention growing up, so I look for love in all the wrong places. Not that I'm complaining, I love sex. I'll take sex before all of the drama of a relationship... most of the time...
Anyhow, when I've become content just fucking someone, there's no going back. To me, all I can think is, "I can't think of you as my boyfriend because I know you. You're like me, only you're a MANwhore. I'd never trust you." In a relationship, I'm loyal. Almost too loyal. So I stay out of them unless I'm certain that I want to go through all of the drama and heartache, and that it's worth it.
Anyhow, I always hate when one of my good fuck buddies catches feelings and are open about it. Sure, I catch feelings sometime, but I keep my mouth shut, in fear of messing up good sex. I wish everyone had this kind of unhealthy philosophy. It would make my life so much easier.
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