Craving Passion Can Be Painful

SO love bugs... it's been some time, even years, since I've written on here (SHOUT OUT TO THOSE LOYAL READERS WHO FOLLOWED ME ONTO TUMBLR) and a few things have changed.. Still coping with daddy issues, and trying to heal my co dependent nature with a warm body in my bed- nowadays I just tend to be a little more picky. No, i am no longer in a relationship (THANK GOD), and have been single for some time. And I only have one of my same fuck buddies (but our relationship has evolved into actual friendship and love). So. Where do I start to catch you all up? I've developed a genuine love for DDlg, which stands for Daddy Dom/Little Girl. Before the politically correct Jesusers come out, no, it has nothing to with pedophilia... To me, it is just gentler BDSM, which I've learned, when taken too far, can trigger some deep rooted issues that I'm not mentally prepared to deal with. I enjoy DDlg because it allows me to really absorbed myself in my daddy issues, and, in turn, deal with them in a rather healthy manner. My last boyfriend did not understand this, nor did he respect (or appreciate) my weird kinks. Luckily, and new interest of mine does, and came by it naturally, without having to do any explaining. But, we will see how that goes (Yes, there is a sexcapade behind that one, that will be my next post, i promise, love bugs). Aside from my new kink, I am also, now, a mother. While I debated not included that in my blog, I've decided it is important for my readers to know, as my beautiful daughter has changed my entire world, for the better. Her father is the last boyfriend I wrote about, who I was with for years. I will not go into the details of our current "relationship", let's just leave it at "hostile", though I will say I will always have so much love for him, for giving me a beautiful little girl. NOW, how did this change my sexual life? FOR THE BETTER! Firstly, on a shallow tip, my nipples are now 20x more sensitive. After giving birth and breast feeding, I can almost come from the right person just biting my nipples. Secondly, I crave passion more so than just sex. Possibly because my self esteem went up tenfold after her. Suffering with bipolar disorder, I am either EXTREMELY self confident and self sure, or completely insecure and broken. There is no in-between, most days. But having a child was the single most amazing thing I've ever done. No, the circumstance may not have been ideal, but, as an artist, she is my most beautiful, and prized piece of art. Besides the usual admiration of my child's offspring, it made me feel more feminine than ever before. Even now, two years after giving birth, I feel like I still have a glow. She gave me confidence I never knew I had. For that, I'm thankful. My child also made me determined to never settle. That applies for all things, including sex. At this point, I crave more than just to cum, but passion. I crave someone who I can get totally lost within... someone to please, who sets my very being on fire....